What do I do to ignore whats behind me?
Do I follow my fate to escape blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I let it go and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
The sunlight burns the skin of sleeping men
I make the right turns but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself
MYSELF! I ask why
but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
MYSELF! I ask why
but in my mind I find
I cant rely on myself

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If turn my back I'm defenseless
And to give into fate seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
By Myself
MYSELF! I ask why
but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
MYSELF! I ask why
but in my mind I find
I cant rely on myself

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

How do you think
I've lost so much
I'm always afraid
That I'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will kno